Perfection

Hi, it’s me! I’ve been on a blogging hiatus due to extra teaching responsibilities at UT this past semester. The semester was a real doozie, and I plan to take full advantage of my summer “break” (it’s not a complete break, but will definitely be slower, relatively speaking).

I have been longing for a slower time since January and am actively working on ways to avoid getting bogged down with work like I did over the past few months. So far, that has included: being outside, riding my bike, taking walks, pictures, and naps, petting Lulu, doing absolutely nothing.

As I type this, I am watching the trees outside my window, leaves dancing in the wind. Nature provides a steadfast reminder to return to the present moment.

Nature allows me to remember what matters, what is true.

Nature presents opportunities to practice non-judgment, and reciprocates.

Nature doesn’t strive or plan; it just is.

It is interesting to contemplate how we have decided that humans should be different than nature, despite our inherent connection to it.

Would I judge a leaf for being lazy?

Would I try to force the waves of the ocean to change?

Does my dog even realize her belly jiggles when she walks?

Aren’t these aspects of nature “perfect” just the way they are?

Yet I have believed in the illusion of human perfection in big and small ways. I have spent more years than not in pursuit of the perfect me, which entailed lots of doing and not much being.

I used each moment as a means to an end.

I kept people at a distance…they would surely leave once they saw my defects.

Last night, I heard a poem by Danna Faulds, and this line particularly resonated with me:

Perfection is not a prerequisite for anything but pain.

I’ve included the full poem below for those who are interested (this is the most complete and accurate version I could find online).

Much Love Y’all,

Lara

Awakening Now, by Danna Faulds

Why wait for your awakening?

Do you value your reasons for staying small more than the light shining through the open door?

Forgive yourself,

Forgive yourself.

Now is the only time you have to be whole.

Now.

Now is the sole moment that exists to live in the light of your true nature.

Perfection is not a prerequisite for anything but pain.

Please, oh please, don’t continue to believe in your stories of deficiency and failure.

This is the day of your awakening.